My first years in college were one of the darkest times in my life. I was away from home for the first time. You'd think that was something to rejoice over, but not for me. I really liked the comforts of home, my church, my friends, and being close to my girlfriend. I didn't even like the college town where I now had to live. My family didn't have much, so I did not have spending money, not even enough to eat at times. My faith in those days was under attack by most of my family at large. No one believed that I was serious about following Jesus and many taunted and ridiculed me every time they had a chance. I felt lonely, rejected, downcast, and at times without hope. Yes, it was very depressing. My prayers in those days were very much like Psalm 22 - where are you God? Why have you abandoned me?
As you read the psalm, you realize that one of the things David constantly does is to remember the past when God had come through for his people and even for himself personally. What better way to build faith and confidence in those dark hours of life than to remember God's track record of his faithfulness? There are plenty of sources to remind me of God's faithfulness. First, I have the Bible. In it I find the stories of God's relationship with Israel, from the Exodus from Egypt to the liberation from Babylon and Persia. Story after story points to the faithfulness of God and tells me: "If God did it for them, he can do it for me." It reinforces my trust in God as I see him at work.
Also, I have a great source of God's faithfulness in my own personal past experience with God. I have plenty of stories to recall of how God came through for me to provide, heal, comfort, strengthen, etc. My own past experiences are worth my reflection and meditation in times when the sun does not seem to come out at all. These stories also have the power to infuse trust in my God.
Finally, there are so many good testimonies from the lives of my brothers and sisters that can serve to inspire my faith, reinvigorate my confidence, and lift up my soul. That's why fellowship with my brethren is so very important. My faith is built upon hearing God's word and God's past acts. It builds my faith to believe that God is faithful and he will do it again. If not in this lifetime, he will vindicate me in the life to come. This builds my hope, comforts my soul, and strengthens my spirit to continue this journey. Even Christ while on the cross, quoted this psalm: "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?"
But he did not quote it in despair. He quoted it in hope, knowing that God the Father would vindicate him at the resurrection. He quoted it mindful of his Father's faithfulness.
Father, in my darkest hours, help me remember your faithfulness throughout time. May the Scriptures ring in my head as a reminder of your power and love. May your faithfulness to me in the past come to mind as well. May I recall your faithfulness to my brethren. Comfort me, strengthen me, and revive my trust in you because you are faithful. Amen.